Sinnamon Love
Dark Connections Featured Member May 2005

Name: Sinnamon Love

Age: 31

Orientation: Switch

Marital status: Vanilla-Sprung not looking. BDSM-Owned.

Do you currently have a sub or play partner: Professionally I am a Domme with a private clientele, and I both Domme and sub for photo and video work. At home I am the property of JohnLove and we have a slavewife named "el."  I am in charge of el's training and adjustment into our lifestyle and family.

Occupation: Porn Star. Fetish Model. Webmistress. Courtesan. Slut.

You are a very popular adult film and fetish actress.  The first question we need to get out of the way is: Are you really into BDSM or is it just a role you act out on screen?

I really am into BDSM.

It is such an integral part of my day-to-day existence. I remember for the longest I would not perform for any video companies that shot BDSM. I was so young when I got into the business, and although I had been actively playing and exploring my non-vanilla sexuality I didn't trust myself to "call it" when a scene got too rough. Like many young women, I didn't know how to say "No," yet so I opted to stick to something where I was comfortable and confident in my sexuality and only shot hardcore sex instead. The first time I shot anything bondage related was for the late Mr. Bruce Seven. I was privileged to have met a kindred spirit in careena collins and she introduced me to Bruce.

He put me in a scene with Luc Wylder in the movie Crazy Times that was so completely intense that at one point in the scene Mr. Seven stopped us to make sure that I was okay because he'd seen a single tear creep down my cheek from under a blindfold.

I have always been a pain slut, a SAM (smart ass masochist,) as well as a submissive - but never a slave. I have a will and give it freely to myLove but never have to be told what to do. I pride myself in being able to anticipate His needs and desires and following orders before they are given. In my early years in the adult business I was approached by many men to give them golden showers and Top them in other ways.  Because of this I found that I had an innate ability to Dominate others. In my personal life I find myself to be extremely Dominant with women and generally submissive with myMan... but not necessarily all men. I do Top professionally, although only recently that has been exhibited in my on screen work as well.

How did your interest in BDSM evolve?
I always love telling this story. My interest in bondage came when I was in the tenth grade. I was only 13 and met a guy that was 19 and a year out of school. He had an intoxicating aura and I was His the moment we met. Because I was a so young he refused to have sex with me, but he would have me come over to His house every day so he could eat my pussy. Being a silly girl I didn't know how pleasurable oral sex was and fought Him over it so much that He finally drilled O-Rings into His waterbed and cuffed me spread eagle so He could have His way with me. Before I knew it I was being ordered to His house before school, on my lunch break and after track or gymnastics practice so He could eat my pussy. He would tell me how delicious I tasted until I came repeatedly and finally let go of the Catholic guilt that bound me...

Our relationship freed my mind of many of the typical ideology of relationships most of young people get caught up in. He was brutally honest with me, "You know that since I'm not fucking you I have to fuck someone," He'd tell me. When I'd beg to have sex with Him He'd tell me, "You don't know enough about sex to have sex with me." I started reading everything I could at Brentano's and Waldenbooks in the sexuality & self help sections to expand my mind. I came across the Sleeping Beauty Trilogy, Anais Nin's Diaries, and The Story of O and my life changed forever. I started sneaking into The Pleasure Chest to buy Him instruments of torture that I wanted Him to use on me and would wrap them immaculately and deliver them to Him at the barber shop He worked at. I would write beautiful prose begging for the chance to prove my Love to be one of those that were blessed with the ability to take Him in their mouths... But He made me wait.

He would give me small orders at first; I was only allowed to wear skirts and dresses and was never allowed to wear underwear around Him - and if I did He would confiscate them. My 15th birthday was a turning point. He took me to UC Santa Barbara to a dorm party of a girl He was fucking. At the end of the night when it was just the 3 of us He cuffed me to a chair legs spread, one hand lodged in my pussy, the other behind my back. He positioned her on one side of me then positioned Himself on the other. I was forced to keep my eyes open while this co-ed sucked myLove's cock just inches from my face... something I'd never had the pleasure of doing. When He erupted all over her face and lips I cried. I knew I wanted to be the one giving Him pleasure. I was silent the whole way home. But He promised after I turned 16 He would teach me to give head so that no man would be able to resist me. He took me home and ate my pussy, telling me I was His girl and to never forget that. I went to bed that night with a smile on my face.

We grew together in our sexuality. After many years I wore His mark - the ring in my clit-hood a permanent symbol of my commitment. We would spend time developing rules for our Love so there were no misunderstandings. I would be punished for both pleasure and transgression and I was never happier. After being together off and on for 7 years and being completely addicted to one another and the sex we had together we found that the continual growth that had bound us ceased and we parted ways.

I'll ever be grateful to Him for helping shape my sexuality - both in BDSM and outside of it.

What was your first onscreen sex scene like? My very first movie ever was for Wicked Pictures called Black Casting  Couch 2. It was a POV movie (shown from the Point of View of the actor or director) directed by Rodney Moore. I actually wound up doing 2 scenes in the movie because I swallowed his cum in the scene not knowing I was supposed to spit it out for the camera- telling him on camera that was the way I'd been taught to give head. It was reactionary - cum in the mouth - swallow. I couldn't help myself and did it again in the second scene as well.

It was a good experience. Rodney is a consummate professional and used me in several movies including several custom videos for a period of time after that.

Are you able to go into subspace during a filmed bdsm scene? Do you have any tricks or techniques that enable you to block out distractions during filming?
I slip rather easily into subspace whenever I am shooting SM scenes regardless of whether it is still or video. Any sort of physical restriction, especially rope causes me to get all subbie and glassy eyed so easily - the trick isn't how to block out the distraction but how to keep my eyes open and not go completely under. I often find even during Vanilla sex I will put my hands above my head and cross my wrists as if I am in bondage while I'm being fucked.

Do adult film stars ever just call it quits and walk off the set, or is it true that "the show must go on" no matter what the circumstances? What if you just can't get aroused or you find your partner distasteful?
There is always some sort of drama related to shooting a movie. Some performers are professionals and work their way through the difficult scenes. As a woman, being aroused isn't really an issue - we don't have to physically show arousal like a man does. Worst case there is always lube and spit and a fake moan if need be... just like in real life. Fortunately for me however, I can always find something to concentrate on to get me going be it a feeling or a memory to make it though.

We know Sinnamon is an all around sexy woman, but do you prefer your bdsm scenes with sex or without? Are there any laws that prohibit sex in hardcore bdsm flix?
To me Sex and SM are synonymous. I prefer to have both and in my personal life I tend to always get that in some way or another. In the adult industry while there are no written laws per se that I know of that prohibit it there are obscenity laws that we have to be concerned about from state to state. One of those is the appearance of rape. If a woman is restrained there is the appearance that she is not consenting - therefore more companies steer clear of mixing those elements in scenes.

Some people might argue that a true switch can never be fully possessed by a Dominant. What do you have to say about that?  I think that if a person is truly a switch they can be possessed by the right person. Being able to only speak for myself I know that often I meet Dom's that think that I am supposed to submit to them just because I am a sub as well. They try to assert themselves too hard and I wind up Topping from the bottom. I am an aggressive Top - my thoughts and fantasies tend to be far more twisted than anyone else can imagine so if someone tries me but doesn't come correctly they will wind up being more frustrated than it's worth. I like being mind fucked and completely confused - but that takes a certain skill level that few Dom's I've met have mastered. To be able to take someone to a level of utter confusion as to their place yet not take them on a bad trip either is difficult. I was fortunate to find a Man that understands and respects my limitations and knows when and how far He can push them at any given moment. He knows how to bring me down safely and how to provide the proper amount of aftercare even if it has to be via phone as He's leaving the scene to remind me of HisLove. This is not my first SM relationship but my 3rd yet is the first in which I've petitioned to be His property.

I knew when I gave myself to Him that I could place my life and will in His hands and no matter what He would still hold me in the highest regard. Trust is paramount in any situation but I believe that with a S/switch if the Dom/mes skill level isn't also on par with the S/switch there will be a battle of the wills and it will be impossible to Top them.

You know the saying - Better come correct or don't come at all? That should be the S/switch's credo. I think Switches make better bottoms because they participate in their submission.

You've performed in over 150 adult films, yet only about 15 of those featured fetish content. Is there less of a demand for black women in the fetish film business?
I only recently, (in the last 3 years,) started shooting fetish content. I primarily shoot for fetish photographers and websites and do find myself shooting for more video companies these days. I was so proud when my scene with porn legend Jamie Gillis helped Redboard Video's Spanked Toilet Whores win this year's AVN Award for Best Fetish Video (Spanking Genre.) There really is a demand for women of color in the fetish side of the business, but there aren't very many of us around here in the states. When I first started shooting with bondage photographers I was extremely well received because there are so few Black models that are even willing to be tied up, let alone be flexible enough or have a high enough threshold to withstand more stringent ties and suspensions. Often photographers have told me that there are few really pretty Black models that are kink friendly so when they find one they tend to shoot them a lot.

In my humble opinion, I find that many of the mainstream porn companies that attempt to shoot fetish scenes wind up shooting such watered down versions of the real thing. I'd love to shoot more fetish video as opposed to internet only projects but as long as it's quality and true to life I think it doesn't matter. I've been privileged to have worked for Harmony and Redboard, Fetish Diva Midori, Slave Labour Productions, the Cybernet Group and countless fetish, bondage and shibari photographers for their websites. These days I shoot less hardcore movies because I refuse to fuck anyone (on film or not,) other then myOwner sans latex. I have a responsibility to my body and my Triad to be safe in all things that I do. It is far easier for me to shoot bondage movie for less pay than to do a D.P. with 2 guys without condoms. I can honestly say that I've never been on a quarantine list when there has been an outbreak of HIV in the business because I don't work everyday like others do. However with age, knowledge, wisdom, understanding I acknowledge that if I continue playing roulette in my career one day my life as I know it will come to an end. I like being able to play as I please without having to worry the next day.

When I first started actively shooting fetish projects I sort of shocked many of my vanilla porn fans because it was something they were not accustomed to. I was rather disappointed to read ignorant commentary on Black porn forums that accused me of being a"crackhead," "sellout," or being willing to "do anything for money" after having seen me in scenes with midgets or being tied up and whipped. It's so sad to me that even in terms of their turn-on's and pornography people are still so small-minded. Fans would rather see a Black girl take 2 dicks up her ass than being flogged by a white man or woman. For me bondage and SM are about getting off - not race. Even when I volunteered to be a demo model for Fetish Diva Midori for a class on Erotic Humiliation at the Woman's Center in San Francisco there were Black women that walked out because they had a hard time watching this Japanese Domme forcing me to crawl down the middle aisle amidst 100 or so women to beg for a condom so I could fuck Her boot after having her spit in my mouth.

I try not to pay attention to what others say because I know that you can never enlighten those that want to remain in the dark. I know who I am and am happy that I can finally show the world the other side of Sinn.

What effect do you believe the internet has had on the adult film industry? Are obscenity laws tougher or more lenient today than when you first started your
career?
I really don't know how the laws have changed since I started but I do know that the internet has had an amazing effect on the industry. It provides an avenue for ladies such as myself that will never receive a single residual check from the sale of any video to capitalize on her name and image long term if she so chooses. It has also allowed consumers the ability to find likeminded people and not feel so alone in having a particular kink. I mean if you are into watching drunk girls paint their toe nails purple you can finally find other people like you! As a model I love having the opportunity to market myself in a manner that suits me to photographers and companies outside of my area so I can expand my income stream. Nothing is better than that for an aging porn star. Hehehe!

Since you've been quite candid in the past when speaking about your breast augmentation procedure, we'd like to ask you about them. Some of the more intense fetish pictorials you've been in show you engaged in extreme forms of breast bondage. Are there any types of breast torture scenes that you just can't do because of the implants? You know at first I was totally cool with doing tight breast bondage because I thought it looked cool and since I never had boobs before I'd never really experienced much breast play. Although I've never damaged the implants I have found that the tight binding may have caused them to ripple a bit faster. Now I do not do tight breast bondage any longer in fear of it getting worse before I can have them re-done.

I can use clamps, although I have extremely sensitive nipples and can only tolerate certain kinds. Like I can't take clover clamps for example. Many years ago I did have my nipples pierced and I took them out to nurse my baby. I'd love to do it again but they are so sensitive these days I'm afraid to.

You've been in scenes where you are strapped to an enormous wheel and dunked repeatedly into a tank full of water. Most subs would exhibit a bit of trepidation when faced with a scene of this magnitude.Were you terrified?
The Wheel of Misfortune was one of Chanta Rose's concoctions for waterbondage.com. I'm always a test dummy for new devices over at Cybernet so when Chanta through this at me I knew it would be fun, exciting and scary as hell. The nice thing about shooting a scene is that in the right company everything that can possibly be done to insure your safety is done. I'm not afraid of water and I know how to hold my breath under water so that helped a lot.

I hesitate to reveal all the things that were done behind the scenes so as not to ruin the fantasy of my water torture scene with them. I will say everything that you saw was 100% real but there were so many safety precautions taken before hand including an alternate signal in case I was in trouble. Cybernet is one of my favorite companies to work for because they will stop and restart as many times as they need to - if they need to so the model is comfortable. They always work within the models limitations.

There were moments when I was terrified during the scene. At one point I almost lost it and started crying - but it wasn't about the water or the dunking. I was tied to the top of the wheel and was just lying there waiting for the scene to continue while they worked out some safety issues. Hearing some of the potential problems but not seeing anyone or what was being done made me almost loose it. Fortunately Chanta noticed my silent discomfort and had me brought to eye level and comforted me making sure I was okay to continue. They sped up the necessary repairs and we continued without a hitch.

Other than that the only things going through my head were maintaining a slow steady breath, remembering to hold my breath during the dunking process and acknowledging when I needed to come up in plenty of time before I ran out of air. It's hard to think about anything other than what you are doing when you are in the middle of the scene that intense. I did give them a few extra turns on the wheel than they had asked for in case they needed more footage. but that's just my OCD kicking in wanting everything to be perfect.

What are your limits? Do you use safe words? And if so, have you ever called one during a filmed session? I have very few limitations: No Blood, Children or Animals. No Scat. I'm not into play piercing or needle play, and I don't do race play at all. If you want to see the S/switch come out in me, try calling me a n*gger or a "Black" anything derogatory in a scene. Jamie found that out in our scene and I wound up spitting in his face and pissing all over him. That was my payback to show him that I can easily take the upper hand. As a Top I love nothing more than seeing my sub's face turning red as he or she tries to swallow ever drop of my piss. As a sub I have yet to go there (watersports,) but myOwner often whispers into my ear about Him doing such things to me. He knows that I have never done that with anyone in the past because I never trusted that they "would still respect me in the morning"  and although I know that I could give all of myself to Him to be used at His whim He know I'm still not mentally prepared for that yet and hasn't pushed. All things in time.

I do have safe words but they aren't abstract things like yellow or red. I simply say, "Enough!" and that's it. Often if I'm gagged I'll stomp a single foot on the floor like a horse or like when I was in the dunk tank - shake my head violently back and forth. For me I won't do anything on film that I won't do or can't fathom doing at home. That goes for both my fetish and vanilla porn work. I love having my boundaries pushed and have found that I really get off on things I never thought I would before like electroplay.

From time to time I have to call my safeword during filming - for example being in a small space for an extended period of time because I am slightly claustrophobic. But normally what will happen is they will take me out of the predicament, get me water, air, a warm robe around me and when I am ready put me right back into it and continue where we left off. This way we get the amount of footage necessary and I can still be comfortable in my skin afterwards. The only time I have ever completely called a day was after having my clit burnt out from one too many vibrators being used on it throughout a 5 hour day shoot. I wound up not performing my last scene because I was in physical pain. I'd expressed that I could do more dildos and not vibrators but I was so exhausted from a day of suspensions and stringent ties that I really couldn't accomplish anything more.
 
As a woman who has mastered the art of eroticism, what words of wisdom can you impart to us lowly neophytes? In other words, how can we fuck like porn stars? Give us any tips you can spare because some of us really need help.
Thank you for the compliment but I have to say I don't really consider myself to have mastered the art of anything.

I am definitely a student of sensuality. I am always willing to try something new if it turns my Partner on. I always say, "I'm just a girl." I'm still that same 13 year old girl that was told she didn't know enough about sex to be physical with this guy she had a maddening crush on. I'm always trying to find a way to please my mate. For me the best sex is with someone I truly love and am committed to. But if you really want to know how to fuck like a porn star I'd say prop a DV camera on a tripod, buy a flood light and stand from Home Depot for $19.00 and you too can be a porn star! But seriously, I don't know how to tell anyone to fuck like a porn star because I just play one on TV. Everyday I try to find new ways to make my life more exciting for the sake of my fans. I mean no one wants to hear that I have 4 hot models staying with me for 2 weeks and everyone is walking around in yoga pants and t-shirts drinking Naked Juices and eating hummus. I hardly ever have sex - but when I do I make sure it's something memorable. When my Owner uses me he makes damn sure I am not about to forget it anytime soon. Our relationship is a bit more open than others of course because many Dom/mes don't share their private stash - but for U/us it works.

I am always ordered to ask His permission before fucking someone else and must always tell Him every detail immediately afterwards. Sometimes He comes up with missions for me to complete like fucking the Apple repair tech that wired my place or calling Him while I am fucking our slavewife after He's left us on our honeymoon night so He can listen and instruct from afar. I may be at dinner with someone and He will call me with orders to ask the guy right then if He has a big dick because I can't fuck him if He doesn't.

Other than that I'd say an open mind and open legs are all you need to for an amazing sex life.

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